Double Blessings Volunteer

I'm currently doing my internship in Double Blessings.

It's been almost a week and I'm really felt blessed to work there.
Although this was not what I wanted at first, but I believed that God do place me there for purposes.
The lessons and experiences I've got were awesome, nevertheless the colleagues are very friendly, kind and is fun working with them.

My product...hehe
It's been really a long time I didn't make any bookmark...

Having a lot of bread and buns were really a blessing.
We had bottles of soya beans for days,
bread and buns for Hi Tea,
chocolates as snacks,
and I would say...
there will be a lot more to come...
Seriously...I started to worry that I might gain weight.

Besides, on the third day of working there,
me and my friends who are also doing interns there prepared breakfast for everyone in the association.

Below are the pictures of our mission...

For those of my friends who are still trying to get use with the new working environment, I wish all the best to you all...
I believe that we shouldn't be grumble of what the choice that given to us or chosen by us...
Try to think from another perspective...

ps: to my dearest roomate, how I wish I can share my breads and buns with you as you are always the one can help me to finish...
I miss you....

me~Fishie

The rhythm of the pouring rain

This blog has been abandoned for quite some time...

almost one month I guess?
Now I can Proudly and freely announced that...
Is the end of another semester...

It's been a tough one.
But, the tougher will come in less than two weeks time.

For those who have my Facebook,
I guess lately you saw that I actually uploading photos.
LOL.

Yea...
I've been to Pulau Ketam with some Ipoh buddies...
My childhood-teenage-adult friend.
It's been almost... 15 years we knew each other...

Exam was kinda hard...
I'm not going talk so tough is it...
I'll let the result say the toughness..

I went to BBQ Chicken in JayaOne with my whole classmates.
Food was alright, I would say...
at least it is not very oily,
the oil they used is olive oil.

Oh ya...almost forgot the most important event in a Uni students life...
the prom of my course.

Well, It wasn't the prom that I taught it should be,
but the party atmosphere is there,
like...one whole gang of young people enjoying the night.

I'll be going back to my home sweet home for around one week...
to recharge before starts my internship.
Besides, it's been a long time I didn't go back,
something bad happened in my house too.
aihz...thieves went to our house and mostly my room...

Stuck - Clear

Recently the rain is more frequent than usual.
Being stuck in the rain.
Stuck in indoor because of the rain.
Feeling lazy because of the rain.
Feeling blue because of the rain.
Thinking a lot because of the rain.

Should I say...blame the rain?

Sometimes the rain slow down the time,
and it made me see things clearer,
realize something I've missed.

I've been surrounded with friends with different situations,
different stories and experiences that they are currently encountered.
The closer they are to me, the stronger their life affecting me.

I have friend who just broke up and hooked up.
I've my own experience on that.
Some might find it silly,
unfair and question regarding the new 'hook-up' relationship.
For me, is the individuals' choices.
As friend, I will be there for you if you need someone to share story with.

I also have friend is hurt by relationship for a long time,
and is still not healing yet.
Everyone knows both the guy and girl need time and space in order for them to heal,
but too bad...
the reality and fact force them to face each other everyday.
I've went through that, but I should say that I'm lucky enough that God gave me luck, courage and most important time and space to heal.

I have friend who is brave enough to find out the truth regarding the past relationship.
They started to chat after five years of silence.
They also started to find out what is the reason of their silence broke up five years ago.
For me, I still need more courage for me to face the unfinished business of the past.
Maybe...I don't have the courage to be the one to start the explore race of the past.

ahh...Initiative is the word.

I have friend who lost her own self and her self worth in the process of torturing from broke up.
She wasn't the girl I knew and first met in Uni anymore.
Friends who supporting her started to feel discourage as she is not healing but continue grieving about the lost in her relationship.
As a friend for her, sometimes I'm fed up of supporting her as when time goes by, she started to get used to the feeling of grieving and accepting people's pity n her.
How I wish I could confront her.
As someone who knows the knowledge of counseling, my confrontation might cause her to gave up her life.

I also have friend who are happily in love.
I'm happy for them.
But again, nothing is perfect.
Some might say bad things and commenting regarding the relationship.
Puppy love, love at first sight, both of them are so different regarding their age, interest, personality....and the list goes on.
For me, if you know my relationship with my dearie, then you know what's my stand in this issue.

Stuck - caused me to see clearer about my surrounding.
Stuck for a long time - caused me think too much of myself.
But...sometimes, I can't stop thinking, wandering and relating it to me.

I'm glad of one thing...
It's been a long time that my time ticks that slow...

me~Fishie

Slowing down...

It's getting to the end of the semester...

Less hectic, but yet a busy.

Final Year Project yet is a headache thing to do.
I traveled, but still...
I'm still lack of resources.

I confirmed will be working in a disable center during my internship next semester.
It is located in Old Klang Road.
Please pray for miracle to happen..
as in miracle in transportation.

I'm looking for the trip back Ipoh...

...to refresh myself...

sorry for the short post.

me~Fishie

Critical period

When I foresee that there is a lot of things to do for this week on Sunday,
I prayed hard that me and my group members can go through this week,
as this Friday (which is today) is our last two assignment due dates.

We worked non-stop, faced obstacles, solved problems,
argued over some opinions...

dang~
I was diagnosed with food poisoning on Tuesday.
I'm unable to stay up to complete with them.
I was so frustrated of myself,
why I'm so weak,
I can't do anything at all...
not even to sleep and rest well.

I was having my mid term papers on Tuesday and Wednesday.
I manage to sit for Tuesday exam, then only fall sick.
but...Wednesday...
I think the paper on Wednesday won't be able to help me much in contributing marks for my final.

dang dang~
one of my group mates was sent to the hospital on Wednesday night.
She was found a bit not conscious and fainting at home.
It was because of exhaustion, she were given injections and intravenous drip,
and rest on the bed for a night.

The next day, which was yesterday...
My 5 people team...four of us were staying up until the next morning,
without sleep,
just to do our assignments.

To the one and only group mate who sleeps well and eat well.
We are enough of you.
Thanks for giving us the mess that you have did.
You will face your own consequences.

I'm praying for my stomach to get normal,
so that I can eat normal food.

me~Fishie

When I'm hunger for more time for sleep...

It's has been days and weeks of suffering...
I believed that after this semester,
I will be tougher and have resistance towards sleep.

I sometimes sleep when I heard the lullaby by the Malays...
the lullaby they sing during the morning,
and wake up at 7.30am for my lecture at 8am...

I've been spamming coffee like water.
What worse was...
my laptop actually told me that she beh-tahan of all the assignments already.
She was merajuk...then she just went off.
aihz...
so, I hospitalized her.
I guess she is exhausted of the heavy workload.
Furthermore, the laptop best friend coolman - the cooling pad,
died too...

Luckily I have my dear,
who is willing to lend me his laptop,
I'm trying not to make his laptop exhausted too...
although I know he is going to get a new laptop soon.

Next week will be my 10th week of this whole study semester...
around a month more,
I'll be having my exams...
the time pass so fast yet so slow...
Fast because I seriously can't find any leisure time for myself at times,
Slow...the process of torturing is really...torturing.

I'm really looking forward for a break,
before I broke down.

I'm so stress of being stressed,
tired of being tired.

me~Fishie

Tension and emo environment

Tension,
because of the stressful and hectic timetable.
Stressful,
because the due date is near.
Angry,
because things don't go our way.
Tired,
because we are lacking of time.
Emo,
because we are emotionally not stable.
Numb,
because we are going trough the up and down again and again.

Browsing through my friends' blog,
most of them posted emo posts.
Decribing how the stress affect their health, their relationships, their life.

aihz...

me~Fishie